So the last six months have been particularly life changing and rough. Well in reality the last year hasn’t been fun.
I’m a graduate student that in the last few months has switched advisers under horrible circumstances. Let’s just say that my adviser went behind my back to try and force me out of my program but by the Grace of God and a lot of good friends in my life I found out ahead of time and was able to fight my way back to stay.
I am now in a much better place. I have a new adviser that I really like and respect. I have projects that I am really excited about and an amazing support system. I am truly blessed.
Now if I can just pass my qualifying exam in about a month… Qualifying exam in a new lab, in a new system, with a new adviser and committee, and new projects. Only insanely stressful and terrifying but I’m hoping for the best.
I’m coming out of this situation stronger and more sure of what I want to do with my life. I’m a scientist at heart but in my soul I’m a humanitarian. After much soul searcher and a lot of praying I’ve come to the conclusion that my calling is to try and help people. I will probably go into non-profit, outreach/extension, policy work.
As things quite down I realize there is more I want to be. I’ve always wanted to be a runner! I have memories of the feeling of exhaustion and freedom that comes after a good run. I want to have that. I’ve also always wanted to be a yogi. I want to be a fit person that is outdoorsy and active. I want to be a dancer. I LOVE dancing. I’ve had many people tell me I’m a good dancer but I’m unsure of my body and don’t have the training. I hope that my new fit self will be more a more confident dancer.
This blog is to meant to hold me accountable as I try and become a running yogi who has a well rounded life outside of school. I want to paint and dance. There’s so much more that I feel that I am and I will get there! It IS time to begin!